Should I or Shouldn't I, That is the question.

Dear, Friends, Family, TTC community and WWW.
     Should I or Shouldn't I blog my troubles experiences, heart ache, laughter, joys? This is something I have been wondering if I should do. So now I have decided that... I will be Blogging about my experience and my thoughts, my joys and heart aches. I have been wanting to do this for sometime now but just haven't had the courage too. I was afraid of rejection, trolls, made fun of but Now I feel like doing it so I can receive prayers and guidance and advise. First let me start by saying this. What I do not want to hear is... Negative comments, Comments that may or may not offend me. Its not that I cannot handle it but I want to hear positive reinforcement, kind words, and real genuine prayers. Also this will be a TMI blog if you don't want to hear it. Leave now! With that said here we go.

        I married my Husband Travis April 1, 2014. He is the kindest most sweetest man I have ever met. Him and I currently have 4 nephews and 3 nieces. We love being an aunt and uncle but we know we want our own. The hardest part for me is since we have been married which I know hasn't been long I have noticed no CM. I have been concerned because of is that we have not conceived? I am going to the Doctor on the 30th and discussing all of my problems. I am praying and hoping it is a quick fix. I also am going to start taking prenatal vitamins and eating more greens. I already drink a ton of water so that is awesome for my health. It is difficult and I keep hearing people saying don't worry it will happen, don't stress about it. Keep positive. But the most kinds of people I hear this from are those who smell boxers and get pregnant. The ones that can just think a thought and it comes to pass. I am the one who has had dreams of my children since I was a child, the one who waited til she was married to decide to have children. (BTW I am not perfect I was not a virgin). I just hate it. Hate to wait, Hate not know. Hate worrying about not knowing, Hate waiting til my Doctors appointment. Its just all these emotions. A few nights ago after our fun time TTC my husband laid his hands on my womb and prayed a sweet prayer for us to conceive. He was genuine kind and so amazing. It made me realize how much I want our little family of two Adults, Dog, Cat, and two bearded dragons to become whole with a little munchkin. So with my mind going five hundred miles per hour. I write me first blog as a prayer request to pray for our future family. Thanks for praying. I will be back.